I refuse
She won’t control me anymore
At least-
So I say
Yet
I find myself
Thinking
About her
Constantly
Her beautiful eyes
Her kind heart
The way she laughs
Her contagious happiness
The way I can’t help
But feel good
Around her
She’s toxic
And now
She’s unreachable
She’s forgotten
Her best friend
I walk by
Her house
Force my eyes away
Look at her profile
Close the tab
Find her contact
Type a message-
Cancel
Put my phone away
Even a song
She hasn’t heard
Reminds me of her
She’s in everything
Every word
Every song
Every thought
Every breath
But I guess-
I may be healing
A little
It doesn’t hurt
As much
As before
I still hope
Someday
She will remember
But for now
I survive
She won’t control me anymore
At least-
So I say
Yet
I find myself
Thinking
About her
Constantly
Her beautiful eyes
Her kind heart
The way she laughs
Her contagious happiness
The way I can’t help
But feel good
Around her
She’s toxic
And now
She’s unreachable
She’s forgotten
Her best friend
I walk by
Her house
Force my eyes away
Look at her profile
Close the tab
Find her contact
Type a message-
Cancel
Put my phone away
Even a song
She hasn’t heard
Reminds me of her
She’s in everything
Every word
Every song
Every thought
Every breath
But I guess-
I may be healing
A little
It doesn’t hurt
As much
As before
I still hope
Someday
She will remember
But for now
I survive